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Jul. 9th, 2008

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Why?

Why do you play with my feelings?
I have been sincere, have I not? 
My chest clenches time after time,
You play games with my affection.

I hold back how I truely feel,
To let what we have develop.
I trun a blind eye  to your games,
But why should I let this go on?

I am sick of being unsure
Of your true feelings about this.
My heart has taken many blows,
I don't think it can handle more.
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Jun. 27th, 2008

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Untitled

Title: Untitled
Authur: starlightflower
Length: 382 words; super-short; but there might be a part two
Rating: G
Genre: drama?
Pairing: anyone you want/ revealed later
Summary: Love is not what you want it to be. Love is free and a thing that is share.
Warning: None that I can think of... 

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After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn
that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.
And you begin to learn
that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
By Veronica A. Shoffstall



Dear Love,

We have been together for years, but I started to see that things have fallen into a routine. I began to reminisce on all the good times we had together, all the memories. Is it right for me to hold you down, to bind you to me? Am I holding you prisoner for my own selfish desires? It is hard to see the blurring lines between love and contentment. Should I let you go? Set you free from my restraints? I watch you as lay sleeping peacefully next to me. You’re so beautiful and at peace away from all the stress reality holds. Just looking at you I can’t help but think you are everything and more. I would always shield you from harm, but am I being overbearing? Who will protect you from me? My Love, I would happily spend the rest of my life with only you as my company. However, I never want to cage your free spirit that is what I feel in love with. So, I have decided to let you go to live your life as you wish, without my presence. Once you have read this, you must have realized that I am gone, and my things are also missing. I love you, and I left for that reason, because I love you too much to seal to away to only my heart.

Sincerely, Yours




The note fell from his hands landing gently on the floor. He could barely comprehend what he had just read. He had just come home to a dark and empty apartment to find a note from his lover. At that moment his vision blurred as he blindly searched his apartment. It must be a sick joke he thought. He was waiting for his lover to pop out of a nowhere and surprise him. Tears fell freely as he finished searching. Every second that passed as he stared at the letter in his hands his heart broke into millions of pieces.

Jan. 12th, 2008

Love Fighter

HOLY Sh*t!!!!

Today I went to get my first tattoo. Knowing me I choose to get the most painful place 
done.... It took two hours just to outline. In 2-3 weeks I have to go back to get it colored.
It was fine at first ,but then near the end it started to kill and burn. In the end the pain was
worth it, I love it soo much. The pain was intense but it starts to fade after a few hours. 
I could barely even drive home.

The people at the parlor was awesome and wicked nice. The experience was awesome aside
from the pain. If anyone is thinking about getting a tattoo on your ribs, I'll just say that it is a very
painful spot. I'll post a pic when the swelling goes down. 



******Update******
LOL forgot to update when I got it filled 2 months ago, but it's still not done :(
my tattoo
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Nov. 19th, 2007

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Baby On the Way

My sister just called to tell me that my cousin is going into labor! I am sooooo excited. She's having another boy. I really can't wait to see him <3

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Oct. 7th, 2007

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Love is ...

Love is childish,
It makes you act outside of your normal self.
Love makes a fool out of the most logical person,
It is a chemical reaction in your brain,
Or is it really only that?
Love can bring heartbreak or happiness,
A fifty, fifty chance.
But people will take that chance just for happiness.
Love is a gamble.
You can win or lose.
Love is what it is,
Just Love.
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A whirl wind....

Fate and Destiny has a funny way of working.
My life is now turned upside down.
I'm packing boxes and taking anything that means something to me.
Funny how sentimental I really am.
Everything seems to have a meaning,
there is no way I can bring myself to throw things out.
I feel out of touch,
distant from my body.
What is there for me to do?
All I can do is sit and wait things out. 
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Aug. 8th, 2007

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NO!!!WHY???

This is nothing new really, but it finally hit me....Hard too...

I finally realize that I have no social life, love life or anything such as that for the matter....(=_______=")
*sigh* all I have is my computer, books and school work.....they control my life......

AHHSSSHHHI!!!!!!!







It is pretty sad that it finally sunk in..........after so many years.....(>_<)
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Jul. 30th, 2007

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Going on hiatus

After coming home from Vietnam after a month now I have a pile of things to do....=__="
So I am goinbg to be gone for a few weeks to get everything in my life straighten out....
Everything is such a mess and it is making me crazy and stressed out >__<

See everyone soon.
Lots of Love!

Jul. 27th, 2007

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Finally Home!!!!!!!!

Yea! I am so happy to be home after a month........I miss everyone! I know I missed soo much and it will be hard to catch up... I can't go to bed =_= I slept too much during the 21-24 hour plane ride..................I don't want to go on a plane for a long time.....It just makes me so sick sitting there so long =__="............

I already miss everyone but I am still really glad to be home and able to sleep in my bed <3
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Jun. 30th, 2007

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Vietnam day 0ne

....Just getting to Vietnam was a headache....Our flight was delayed and we were going to have to wait the next day for a flight. Somehow luck was on our side. The flight was about 21 hours and I got really sick with all the trubulance. When we got there it was about 10:30 p.m but didn't leave the airport until 11. We didn't sleep, because we had to got to the funeral at 4 a.m. The whole day went by so fast. I can't remember what we even did... I just miss everyone and it was great to see them... I'll try to write tomorrow...

angeldice127 I miss seeing you and just pass this on to Tamra, I think mq_92 will see.
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